One of the most positive things about social media for me has been finding communities that make me feel normal. I’ve found Facebook groups which are as enthusiastic about the Chalet School series as I am, and this has been such a joy over the past few years.
Another hobby I’ve revisited has been ballet. I absolutely adored ballet, as a relatively late starter to classes at age 12. I never missed a class and practiced at home daily, using a chair and mirror in my bedroom. Once I finished college I also finished going to ballet classes and for the life of me now I can’t figure out why. I think it was an assumption that it was time to move on from that phase of my life and that I was too grown up now for what, very, very deep down, I thought other people would think a childish hobby.
When March 2020 meant the temporary closure of my gym, I looked to YouTube for ideas to keep body and mind together. I realised a whole world of options for exercise was available at the click of a mouse, and zeroed in on ballet classes. I dipped in and out, depending on whether I had the headspace for it at the time. I didn’t have any ballet shoes or leotard, and like the practice sessions of my youth a chair served as my barre.
A few weeks ago, when my daughter needed character shoes for her Grade 2 ballet classes I decided to add ballet shoes in my size to the order, along with a leotard and tights. I set myself a goal of a 30 minute class once a day and with a few exceptions I’ve stuck to this. And so, as a reward, I treated myself to a barre. It arrived yesterday, I did my first class with it this morning and I’m in love. It has been €90 well spent and it has sparked so much joy.
So this is about me and my barre, but its also about embracing what truly makes you happy, and realising that sometimes what made your heart sing at 12 is exactly what’ll make it sing nearly 30 years later. And not giving a damn about whether anyone thinks you’re too old, or not good enough. If you love it, and doing it never feels like a chore, embrace it, or re-embrace it. Its a very good feeling.